a chapter closed

ok maybe 2 chapters...

The first I just can't hold it in is about David's eyes!! We went to Phoenix yesterday and finally the doctor was able to say to me, "I have some good news." Hooray! David's eyes are developed and have so very little disease and his vessels have grown normally around it that he feels comfortable checking him in 3 months! Praise God! Finally my long drives to Phoenix are coming to an amount of reasonable! Thank you for all of your prayers for David's eyes, they are healed!

We also saw the neurosurgeon at this trip and he thought David looked good. He does still have the swelling directly around the shunt from grunting and pushing but he didn't seem to concerned but to continue wearing the headband some of the time (mostly at night when he grunts and grunts...) Also of concern is his head shape, the common narrowing of a preemie. Anna had the same but eventually started sleeping on the back of her head so it fixed itself. I think we may have to be a little more creative with David. Please keep this in your prayers, it will be a challenge with my stubborn little man. I can't even keep him on an incline in his bed, or the headband on half the time. :)

So onto other news... the title of the post was originally talking about the fact that the breastmilk I had so fervently pumped and pumped and pumped while in Phoenix and here has come to an end. I had such a hard time when we got home with sleep and trying to figure out David and his schedule and eating, etc that slowly pumping was placed on the bottom of the totem pole. The fact that he had thickened feeds didn't give me any motivation for breastfeeding either... I guess I never thought that I wouldn't breastfeed. I thought that it was a given if you wanted to do it. I mean I know people can't sometimes for various reasons but I never thought it would be me. To be honest I never really loved doing it, but I knew that it was the best for my babies so I did it. I can rest in the fact that David got it during a critical time. I think the doctors and nurses at the hospital thought I was a little crazy because of my pumping... and some of them learned about hooter hiders! I mean I had to be able to talk and listen and be in on all the info with David, so I would where the hooter hider (a cover up while pumping or feeding) and tell them come on in! So, the other day I took down my beloved pump and put it away. I thank you Lord for all that I could do.

Thank you always for your prayers and support! We continue to pray for David's growth and healing. We haven't heard from the Pulmonologist about his overnight study and whether the oxygen can come off. Please keep that in your prayers.
Pics to come...